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| to keep on living for.
'cause I'm living just to breath.
this has seriously got to be the stupidest thing I've even thought. but I'm pretty sure I liked it better when guys didn't like me. because now I just don't know what to do. I know it's a good thing for people to like you. really though, I'm already sick of being called cute[or cutie], pretty and gorgeous from people I don't even know.
I'm about to rip my hair out.
I'm not going to lie, most of the guys that like me are pretty cute and/or hott. [this is if we aren't including the ones in my grade, who have all been annoying/ugly/just plain rude]
however, I'm glad the one guy who likes me likes me. as my friend has already nicknamed him the other one that's what I'll call him. although me and him don't really talk. I'm not sure why. I know I don't say much because I'm to busy trying not to look stupid, there-forth doing just what I didn't want to. I don't know about him though.
and I'm really wishing I had known about the other guy before, who shall be nicknamed the man with the best hair ever... tmwtbhe. that works. if I had knowing tmwtbhe liked be before the other one said something I would be so into him. not that he is better then the other one [because to tell you the truth he isn't..] but he is more talkative and outgoing. but I mean it did take him 3 months to get up the nervous to talk to me, only because he clammed I gave him dirty looks in the hallway.
okay enough about boys, they are giving me a headache. [plus I'm not allowed having guys over, even with girls so why does it matter?]
I don't think I want to be any part of my halloween plans for tomorrow. I have 5 people coming over to my house, even though my mum never said I could and said she'd have to think about two people coming over. then I was told we weren't allowed doing anything I had planned for me and my ONE friend to do. which is kind of pissing me off. so we are going to do it before they get there, and maybe include my awesome asian friend, because she has nothing wrong with it. BLAH. I'm not sure if I'm going to dress up anymore. I'm scared of what people will think,, and no one else seems to be dressing up. but really since when have i cared what people think? maybe I only thought I stopped caring. how the fuck do I even know people care?
gah. my mum still hasn't found out I'm in stupid science, but I'm pretty sure I can say goodbye to my social life when she does. I've skipped at least a week of school altogether, another thing my mum doesn't know about. school is slowing just going downhill. I should be good unless I start to fail something. I'm getting in the 90's in science though,. might I remind you it's stupid science.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
[I'm not sure if this song is on this cd, but it's the only rediscover cd that popped up, on my computer it says it's on 'call me when you get this'] | | |
| how do you go about telling people that you don't like the guy you liked because he kissed you? not that I mind being kissed, but when someone just comes up and sticks their tongue in your mouth in front of loads of people and you stop liking him, maybe because of that, maybe because he likes someone else, maybe because you just got over it.
... gah.
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haha I hope you know that the only reason I ever really write here is because I want you to know what I am thinking about or whatever. XD..
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what should I do with my hair? black.. brown... both... under layer coloured... strips coloured... no colour... green.... purple.. red... blue.... two.... three... ? really I have no clue.
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girls camp! warped! stampede!
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| ''9)I really appreciate how much you are there for me, .
U have made the last three months go by sooo fast
and u dont even understand how much that means to me.
u always include me and ur sooo god damn entertaining
especially with ur loud rants.
i want u to know that even though shes coming back
im still going to hang out with u.
im not going to ditch u cause aresooo kind to me,
and nothing can repay that....
I think ur hilarious with ur energy drinks and letter erm borrowing.
o and o
and i totally know what ur thinking right now.
WHAT THE HELL IS UR PROBLEM UR SO GOD DAMN MUSHY
or something like that.
i think that u are a good person and u are selling urself short
cause honestly ur not horrible.''
I was number 9...
She [she being - annoying girl who is obsessed with brit sex and adopted drama when she got bored one rainy afternoon in march of 1988] edited out 'even tho you say you don't give a shit', it was right after the first line. I don't know why she did it made me laugh. But if she wanted to.
This made part of my day, along with the energy drinks, that can KILL!... [or at least thats what the television was trying to inform me.], the cookies did as will [that K-rad had TWO of.. it was shocking], & the 'borrowed' letter, which I am using very lightly, did as will.
One other thing also made my day. Just because it was so randomly weird & I loved it.
''HAPPY 31st BIRTHDAY GERARD!!!!!!!!!!
You can contact me at **********.
Vous pouvez me joindre au **********.''
First off, HAPPY B-DAY GEE!!!! Even though you are old [nah, just older.. I mean last year it was the new 20... for trees?] & dare I say it.. the 'm' word, you'll always be my favourite singer, or one of them.
Secondly, XD. I think I know who it is, after a long 10 minutes of deep thought, which I spent talking to people on msn, I came to the conclusion that it had to be the father of my son. Or are they the mom? we never really went over that.. did we?
If it's not, :(, I guess today really isn't my day for random guessing.
oooooh and not that this is important [hence no caps] Ian [I lied... twice] says lawl (L)
It was STILL April. 9th when I posted this. Or at least where I live it was.
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| Sasquatch has got to be my favourite word at the moment. I'm sooooo excited I'm writing words with way to many letters.. Not that I don't do that normally.. But my dad is taking me and my sister down to Washington to see Sasquatch! Music Festival in may, for ours birthdays [my brother well be joining us.. he's got to pay for himself though.. poor bloke]
Death Cab, Modest Mouse, The Cure, The New Pornographers, The Little Ones.. ect here I came..
I get a haircut this weekend... or at least I hope I do.. if not I'll be sooo sad.. and feel cheated! because I can.. If I do though, I'm going to steal Samm's haircut.... well not really but kind of.. XD
Justin Timberlake went uup on my wall today.. YAY! He's only from a news paper though, Kelser gave him to me!... Ahh New York ♥
oooh and on a last and not very important note, I lost my brush... I had to use a metal dog comb today.. I think I made my hair sad...
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| Today is a blah day! Why because I am in a horrible mood. Its just not worth it! Anything! I am really a horrible person, I don't think I can be happy for others anymore and thats a really big problem... ... And now after that and all my moodyness I must say I had the biggest shock ever today, how can someone live for 19 fucking years and never have had a fucking marshmallow? I mean come on its a marshmallow everyones had one.. This person must have had one last little life to have never had a marshmallow before ever, its so very sad.. I think I have been scarred for life on this one.. Like really.. Blah,.,, and I got pushed over by a psycho dog at the dog show i went to today.. but that wasn't even any fucking fun.... FUCK
CUNT
BITCH
BASTARD
BOLLOCKS
DAMN-IT
SHIT
BITCH
ASS HOLE
TWAT
.... humm sadly that didn't make me feel much better
SO ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! | | |
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